I bought my first eyeliner pencil in sixth grade. I don't even remember why I bought it, but from that day forward I would no longer go to school with a fresh face. From sixth grade up until the day I graduated high school, I made sure I was always wearing my eyeliner when out in public...if I did happen to go out of the house with my eyes lacking their black liner, I would feel ugly and self conscious, as if everyone in the room was looking at me thinking the same exact thing. It was like a security blanket, I couldn't leave the house and be comfortable without it but that all changed once I got to college.
College was a whole other world, not getting dressed to go to class or wear makeup and do your hair was acceptable, and I embraced the no makeup idea with open arms. My big eyes were no longer being subjected to daily eyeliner and mascara. At first, I wasn't sure, I still didn't think that I looked pretty....I felt that I looked tired and homely without make up, that I was missing something. And I was missing something, but it wasn't my Revlon Black pencil, I was missing confidence in my natural beauty.
Over time, not wearing makeup became liberating to me. I could just leave the house, my apartment, or go out in public and feel comfortable in my own skin! I was more than comfortable, I was confident! Other girls would tell me, "Oh but you don't need to wear makeup, you look good with no makeup on" but they didn't know that they too could look and feel the same way I did, they just needed some extra confidence and a smile. There is no greater makeup or accessory than a genuine smile.
Now? Now, I barely ever wear makeup. I feel beautiful in my own skin, I can look in the mirror and I am happy with what reflects back at me naturally. Most times I prefer to go barefaced as opposed to wearing eye liner, eye shadow, and mascara. I've started focusing more on skin care, rather than makeup. After all, if your skin looks good what more do you need? I try new products and read up on the latest skin care reviews. If I had it my way, I wouldn't even wear makeup to teach in but I feel as if I wouldn't be taken seriously as a professional if I did that, and in a way, the fact that I even think that makes me sad about society and its critical lens of judgment.
To show that I practice what I preach on this blog and that I truly am a believer of positive body image and self love, I am posting a photo of myself, unedited, with no makeup on and my hair not done large enough for you to see my flaws and I am one hundred percent okay with that.
Embrace your natural beauty, love yourself, your body and the skin your in.